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I wanna have a pet!!1 Part II
Okay, I have had many sleepless nights now, thinking about what pet I could give a home to in that small flat of mine. And I came to one conclusion: None that takes to much time, non that is awake by day. Non that needs a lot of colleagues to stay happy. Non that takes more space then one squaremeter. And I don’t wanna have a hamster or cavy! NO! I need a pet that has got a lot of character. And I found out that there are sweet little fellows called Weißbauchigel what would be “hedgehog with a white tummy” translated into english very amateurish. I wanna get myself one of those. They are great! They need not that much space (throughout they need a terrarium) and they are awake at night! And thaaaaaat sweet! Plus, if they are used to humans, they are not shy anymore. So befor I got to bed this evening I will buy a book about those animals to make sure that the Weißbauchigel could be my “new friend”!
I had a coffee at Marienplatz this evening with a very good friend of mine called Lisa. And my smile was an honest one! It was great. But on many occations we don’t smile because we are happy, we smile out of incertitude or even out of despair … Smiles are worth millions, … they are beautiful as what ever drives us to smile is.
I am so afraid …
… there are bad thing happening everyday! Our bodies are that fragile! There are deseases and there is violence … And I am not afraid that i will get into worse situations. My fear is that this might happen to those I love. I will have to miss a lot of people on day, … and I am so scared. That’s the way life works, but I am damn fuck’n scared.
I don’t know why …
… I can’t forget about some things, that should be forgotten. My heart is a crazy thing, … sometimes I guess that it want’s to be hurt. Oh my, how borderline that sounds …
Some moments !!1
I saw a couple on the suburban train here in Munich. Felt like they were fresh in love. Sitting close to eachother, holding hands. Her head on his shoulder, … she mumbled something, he smiled at her gently. Her feet where coverd in dirt, she had been walking barefoot, cause her shoes didn’t fit well and hurted her. A feeling of sympathy … of envy - but not a crankered way … that nice, unique and harmonic.
I wan’t a pet !!1
But my appartment is only 25 squeres big and I don’t know what pet could stand that! I am totally into everything fluffy! But I got two cats at home, and after moving back to Stuttgart this two cats an my new pet should not kill eachother! oh my, it is not easy ;(!
Take a sit and listen closely !!1
Reality is nothing but a dream … you just can’t wake up. I am taking a sit and order a SINrise! Time is nothing but an illusion, you will never loose something that happened to you. Some people can exist without eachother, but still need eachother. Space in between is not important. Cause there has never been any distance in thy heart.
Contact in mind is the most important thing.
Where is my drink? I need one, badly. Cause I am getting homesick. I can see the angles.
